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Nyum!! Nyum!! This is so yummy.. How come I never get a food taste like this at Johore??

I almost what it really taste like eating Mee Basah.. Unlike at Johore.. The Mee Basah at my hometown really taste different and obviously nothing alike than what can get there, at Johore.. Naa.. their Mee Basah is way too different that this I have here - and they make it just a bit urm.. I don't know how to describe it.. Awful recipe.. Or maybe thats their way of cooking.. Malaysian Recipe.. Or rather Johorean recipe.. So, I'm not gonna mock that or anything regard to the recipe.. Kekeke.. whatever..

Haaah... Believe me.. I even order the second one for this delicious noodle.. I don't know how they cook it.. and I'll figure it out someday.. I want to cook it myself.. so, I can eat all I want.. See.. almost LICINNNNNN!!!

p/s I won't mind to have the 3rd but Fuuuh.. I'm full...

Do you know how it's gonna feels like to be left behind by someone close to you.. Or have you ever being left. The moment you never be able to see one truly fond to you.. ever again. Have you ever thought what you gonna do without him/her to watch after you or for you to watch over. It doesn't matter who he/she is - it could be your parents, your boy/girlfriend, friends, siblings, uncle/aunt, granparents or anyone you were close to. Close enough to let them left you behind. There comes a moment when you feel all down, the sun seems lost, like the world gonna die, and you decided to just follow the memories of your light. #405 Left Behind.. Just expressing my view of being left behind..


For even the strongest of us, it seems to play tricks. Slowing down, hovering … Until it freezes … leaving us stuck in a moment unable to move in one direction or the other.

.. and you either take that step forward or stay down all your life. Some people will say the same thing I said here, OVER and OVER AGAIN - "life wasn't supposed to be like that. We have to move on." But, it's easier said than done. Some of use, we didn't cry - it's not like you feel nothing for 'em, that you not fond enough to get so down for their gone - you probably not gonna let anyone see you crying and some of use might not be able to buffer up the tears out burst.. Damn, It's hard enough to watch someone die before your eyes not to mention to see their dead body - it'll not gonna move ever again. If you feel like crying.. let it burst out of you.. if you feel like screaming, scream out or you never know what you really feel. It's not like you keep everyone so close to you that they'll not gone - they might someday.

p/s Trust me time would heals all wounds. All any of us wants is more time. When the time is right. It is time for you to stand up. It's time for you to grow up. Time for you to let go.

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I can't Believe I'm addicted!!??

We could see addiction everyday. It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it was just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted. Often...too often...things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive... compulsive... out of control. It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else...fade away. The thing about addiction is it never ends well. Because eventually whatever it is that was getting us high...stops feeling good and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don't kick the habit 'til you hit rock bottom. But how do you know when you're there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us...sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.

A couple hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that till tomorrow," he said, "which you can do today." This is the man who discovered electricity. You'd think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection. Because, what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? Sometimes, the fear is just of making a decision. Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true. That, by the time the pain of not doing a thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor. And you thought I was speaking metaphorically. The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still, sometime we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant.
"That knowing is better than wondering."
"That waking is better than sleeping."
"And that even the biggest failure, even the worst, most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying."

When we get to talk 'bout what the heart saying.. There been a symbol of heart everywhere.. But, what do we know 'bout heart. There just 'bout the matter of time before our heart threatened.. Rushing or stop beating.. We need a beating heart to be actually alive. So when the heart shattered to pieces - no difference from dying; dead walking. Once your heart broken, will you still keep it broken till the your very last breath your very last drop of blood - will you need a shoulder to cry on??

So, what's with the food. Would you waste your food when you are actually need foods to survive. To keep you alive. It won't be any matter whether you threat with delicious food or tasteless food - it'll still gonna keep you alive; it's about the matter of you choice - it is whether you're willing to sacrifice your very chance to keep on living rejecting food that impossible for you to consume. So, what it is about the food and you heart!!??


What would you know about the culinary and holistic?? A little magic on the kitchen would probably bring out the passion of every single consumers. Simple recipe yet full of love might reach your lover's heart. All of the ingredients in that recipes most probably ready in your pantry or refrigerator, or are easily gotten from your grocery store. The flavors you might cook shouldn't be too exotic to entice a little intrigue, ingredients not necessarily hard to find. Not only that but all the recipes must be heart healthy – because what is love without the heart?

Like every wishes in this world, different after another.. I love delicious food. So, I wanted to be someone who can cook for me!! It's rather impossible to have someone who can really express the love through food. May the wish come true!!

Question : "If you've made an especially delicious-looking food, as a cook, who would you feed it to first??"


p/s One of the Lovely Song

Enfolding your love in my heart
By the dawn I'll be gone
The road keeps us apart
For some time I'll be gone.

You promise to swallow your tears when I leave you
You promise to follow the leads I will give you,
You said you would crawl in the dark from the laughter
You said you would long after me ever after.

My love will grow black if your heart gets stolen
Just promise to keep your heart…
One day I'll come back if the door's still open
Just promise to keep your heart broken.

Days go by like the wind
And this life is too short
It makes no sense to give in
To release you from my thoughts.

I promise to write you I'll always remember,
I promise to try to be back 'til December
I said I must go, I must face this disaster,
I said I would come after you ever after.

My love will grow black if your heart gets stolen
Just promise to keep your heart…
One day I'll come back if the door's still open
Just promise to keep your heart broken.

If you just promise to keep your heart…
Promise to keep your heart broken
If you just promise to keep your heart, Broken… broken.

My love will grow black if you heart gets stolen
Just promise to keep your heart…
One day I'll come back if the door's still open
Just promise to keep your heart broken.

For ever and after my love
just promise to keep your heart broken....

p/s answer of the question
"Yourself!! The first one you feed it to is yourself. Well, it looks like an especially delicious food, right? But, you don't know whether or not it's delicious. You can't feed something like that to someone else. Obviously, you have to eat it first.

Few days ago, June 15th the world's celebrate their father.. "Father's Day". I've red few blogs upbringing the appreciation of their father in the reason of raising them.. feeding and all. Some of them consider their father as a role model, their hero.. I remember the one time Kak Farhana ask all students in my lecture's group - whose your hero in family.. Everyone commend their father as their hero..

My parents divorced.. I don't really know if I were to hate my father for given up his family.. As what I heard from my mom.. They met each other long time ago before i was born (of coz' is it). Married at a very young age and not entirely out of love. I don't know if it is love that I feel for my father or it is just that I longed for father's love.. Haha.. Funny that some of us, might not be able to know what it feels like when you get to love by your father. And for me, it was short time to feel what it feels like to have a father. And I never see my father ever since my parents divorced. What would you feel if one day you were with your father and one morning he gone.. Most importantly what if you know that your mere existence in this world is not even a seed of your parents love together?? A totally different story huh!! You might think how come I didn't appreciate my father that much. But, have to put in your mind.. Not everyone are the same, most importantly no father can do as much as the other fathers does.

Since I was little I had to witness their arguement, quarelling like a 5 years old child, I get to live with this whole drama. And there is this one time I heard my sister crying.. Tear?? I never wanna see any tears fall from anyone around me.. I can't help it but get upset.. Even when my mother get scolded by my father, harsh word came out from my father say things bout my mother cheating - she silence, patient all her way... The thing 'bout my father is that he never scolded his kids or harm them even when he get too angry.. Things I couldn't help is he gave up on the family..

You probably not gonna know what it feels like to hate your very own father. And I do appreciate even when he show us his love not just bribe us with money. He think that I'll ever forgive him for that bribe.. I know when he had nothing... no thing to give us in return for cave in the family once he had - and yes, his married. But, giving out money???? I never think that the love I longed for.

In the mean time, I'd love to have a father. I'd kill to have a father that love me as and the family much as any perfect father does.

p/s I bet I never gonna be a good father!!

Hey.. Look what i got here.. I finally got myself a new spectacle.. Well, not that I'm so proud of it.. It all happened too fast to catch anything before the eyes.. just rushing thing at that moment.. Wahahahahaa... So, there wasn't much of a time to be all picky.. LOL.. No reason to be unreasonable!!

It's Cyber Eyework TM btw .. I would prefer Creative Exchange But I couldn't find it anywhere..
Wahahaa...

There's this song I found recently.. Not really a new song.. (One of my favorite band)

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further
when you're headed for the
ground,
And there is nothing more
painful than to let you're
feelings take
you down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and
feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if
you let me walk with you
by your side,
And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone, cause I'll be there.
All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on
Side by side,
With you till the end
I'll alway be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
when the whole world's gone
you won't be alone
cause I'll be there!
And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....

p/s this song is for my ex-ex sekalian..

I Love onepiece... Tenryuubito.. who the hell they think they are.. They you go.. that stupid fat-ass Charlos-sei.. I've been waiting for any of Luffy's crew or he Himself to kick their ass.. Not to mention the other two Tentyuubito not stupid as this Sei.. They are the real shames for the Noble.. Here you go.. NGUUUAAAAHHH!!! One down... Two more to go..

I Love Katherine Heigl and so I love to get married.. Well about my interest.. I just gonna put aside what I like.. I'm gonna put Marriage as my No.2 interest and 3rd is Girl.. My Number 1.. is still the same.. Hehe (It's a secret no one supposed to know.. and few of my fwen figured it..)
You know when you and your special one vow to stay together till the very end 'Till dead do us part'.. How cool it is.. I'm gonna hate myself for not getting married. And I watch the fairy tale 'Enchanted' by Dr. Derek Shepard..
This is what I like bout it..
"Forever and Ever"
".. they live happily ever after."
"True Love Kiss" - Know the story Sleeping Beauty (Man.. That so cool)..

p/s To those my friends that send me comments and email and mail for my birthday.. I'm so Love u all.. Thanks..

Two days after the previous release, はいあい Gantz chapter 273 : Roars of Terror...
I want to be made of iron,
Even if it meant losing everything.
as one would when they died,
it'd be worth it if I could protect you forever.
How terrible is this chapter.. It is full of excitement.. They are still fighting with the 100 pointer after all the fighting against this monster, killed several times - so many times as if he is immortal.. I can't wait till the revival of Kei Kurono (will he be resurrect..? わからない)

p/s I can't believe I'm offline for almostly 2days because of the unstable connection..